The many names of Zach Higgins

By David Mitchell

**Note--This is a story submitted to The Citizen for print. It appears, however, they have decided not to run it despite the outcry of this case. I decided instead to post it here.**

My friend is not who you think he is.

My friend was a leading member of the church youth group throughout high school. He played guitar in the praise band and for years was one of the few people that really embraced the group.

Throughout a period of instability in the leadership in that group, my friend stepped up to help keep the group alive. Together with a few others, my friend and I formed a core of regular attendees that made that youth group like family.

My friend enjoys making people laugh. Each Wednesday after church, he would participate in a game known as “tree kicking.” It consisted of him, a very tall and lanky kid, kicking tree limbs that were two feet above his head.

If you can imagine Yao Ming of the Houston Rockets doing toe-touches, that’s about what it would look like.

My friend is one of the most caring individuals I have ever known.

Throughout a period of unrest in my family, he was always a rock for me to stand on, someone I could talk to and count on through thick and thin. When times got the hardest, he was the one who would pick me up, make me smile and know that everything was going to be alright.

My friend’s name is Zach Higgins, but you know him better as a man recently convicted of rape.

On Tuesday, Mar. 24, a jury found Zach guilty of raping a then-16-year-old Tyrone girl as well as aggravated sodomy.

I could get into endless debate over the facts of this case, but my point is not to overturn his conviction. That is not for me to decide.

My point instead is to let you know who my friend really is.

I guess I can start this description by telling you what he is not.

He is not me.

Zach and I are opposites. The fact that he and I have been such good friends throughout our lives is a miracle in itself.

We don’t like the same types of music. We don’t wear the same clothes. I am often quiet and reserved, he is outspoken. He is the Eddie Haskell to my Wally Cleaver.

And yet, our friendship has endured.

This alone says something about Zach that you would not otherwise realize. He is a loyal companion.

I became friends with him in the toddler’s room at our church. As we grew up, it became clear that we were two very different people. Once in high school, the difference was night and day.

In a normal high school environment, you just don’t see someone like him hanging out with someone like me. In Biblical terms, it’s the equivalent of a Jew fraternizing with a Samaritan. It was unheard of.

And yet Zach wore blinders to who I was and I reciprocated in kind. To loyal individuals like him, clothes, music and other friends were a non-issue.

One spring, my parents and I invited Zach to accompany us on our annual ski trip out west.

Now there is something you have to know about Zach to realize how crazy this is.

He is not the most coordinated person in the world. Picture a lanky 6 foot 5 inch man sliding on pieces of wood. It just doesn’t work very well.

At one point, my parents and I skied up to the line where the chair lift picks you up. Looking around at each other, we noticed Zach was not with us.

We turned around to see him sprawled across the chair like Cleopatra waiting on us to feed him grapes.

The chair picked us up—sort of. My mom and I ended up in Zach’s lap while my dad sat on the metal arm wrest.

Every year when my parents and I sit down on the chair lift for the first time, we laugh about the time Zach Higgins almost knocked us down into the snowy abyss below.

Zach and I did everything together.

For as long as I live, I will never have a better memory than the nights we hung out over the summer. Going on trips with our church, staying up late playing video games and watching Tommy Boy.

Still, to this day, when the temperature hits the right spot and the breeze kicks up in the summer, I have flashbacks to all the fun we had together, the tears we shed in our small group on our youth groups trip to the Christ In Youth conference.

And now, I can’t help but look to the future, a future I had hoped would entertain unending memories that we could continue to share.

Instead, I see myself graduating college without Zach in the crowd.

I see myself writing in a magazine or a newspaper. Zach won’t read my weekly columns.

I see myself getting married. Zach won’t be my best man.

I see myself having kids. They will never know the friend that was always the closest to my heart.

And I know this is not who Zach is. I know this is not the reputation that he should have.

The Court has reached a judgment that will forever change how he is viewed.

From now on, many will know him as Zach the Convicted Rapist. That is a stigma that will be impossible to leave behind.

But to me, and to those of us closest to him, who know who he really is and what he is really about, he is and always will be Zach the Son, Zach the Brother, Zach the Friend and Zach the Man.

These are names given by people who love him through the best and worst of times, and to me, that is the judgment that matters most.

**If you have a personal story or anything to share about Zach, please post in the comments section.**

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Submitted by bloodyfleshlight on Thu, 04/16/2009 - 1:50pm.

"I became friends with him in the toddler’s room at our church."

Oh God that's danger right there. Don't you know what Zach does with toddlers?

Submitted by support101 on Sat, 03/28/2009 - 5:31pm.

WOW... I just spent the morning reading this thread and I am overwhelmed with emotions. I have no attachment to the victims in this case -- any of them: the young lady who came forward, the convicted rapist, the friends and the family of BOTH sides. You are all victims, you have all suffered, you have all lost, and you all grieve for different reasons. So, take the finger pointing out of this and realize that this is a terrible situation for everyone involved.

Now, how do I know and what gives me the right to post? I have been that girl. I have been the one who covered up what happened. I was the one that didn't come forward because I was ashamed. I was the one that looked my BEST friend (even to this day) in the eye and told her everything was fine after her CLOSE friend had raped me because I couldn't tell her that he did it... that he wasn't the person she thought he was. I was the one who silently mourned and silently hurt. I was the one terrified that no one would believe me. The longer I went without saying something the more impossible it became to tell anyone. A year went by and I was breaking down. I was too prideful to let anyone see. This guy was a member of a VERY close-nit group of friends and a very unified community -- much like this Higgins. He wasn't a bad person towards them. He cared about his friends and his family.

And then, over a year later, I got a phone call from a detective. The person who had raped me had attacked someone else. She had been braver than me. She had come forward immediately. HE HAD ESCALATED HIS TACTICS -- the attacks on her were WORSE. And, so, another year later and after a lot of terrible heartache and pain -- he went to prison. I had to find it in me to finally come forward and to stop hiding. BUT, I am filled with guilt and shame -- not only for what happened to me but because I wasn't able to stand up to his friends, to my friends, and to the system and justice and what was right -- so, IT HAPPENED TO SOMEONE ELSE.

I know you care about Mr. Higgins and it is, of course, plausible that he is innocent. I had to look my attacker's family and friends in the face and I felt complete sadness -- they were angry and accusatory. They wrote hate messages on boards like this and they posted "facts" that were only partial truths. They LOVED him and supported him. As, they should. BUT, I implore all of you to be mature enough to take a step back. To see that there just may be another side. That the young girl is suffering greatly. That there just MAY be truth and for that you should understand. As unbelievable as it was for my best friend to understand, she struggled every day with me and without me -- because she became a witness for the defense, I could not talk to her. We were both broken. And, she struggled with the truth for a long time. She could not see him committing such a heinous act. She could not see it because he had always treated her with such kindness. And, to this day, she supports him as a person -- not what he did -- but his person. She supports the good things he has done for the people around him. BUT, she believes in our justice system, she believes in the facts of the case, and it breaks her heart to see him for who he truly is, and she still see's goodness in him. And, I cannot blame her for that. But she has also seen my suffering and the years of pain that have followed. She has seen the effects of not only the rape but the terrible trial that came afterward. She has seen what those around us had to say and their criticisms..

THIS IS REAL. These are real people involved. STOP spreading the hurt and the pain and just understand. Doubt, question, have faith that the truth will persevere. BUT DO NOT BLINDLY FOLLOW A PERSON BECAUSE YOU HAVE SEEN GOOD, because you "know", because you have seen injustice -- be better than that. Support him, but do not butcher her in the process. WHAT IF SHE IS TELLING THE TRUTH??? Would it have been your sister next?? Your girlfriend or wife?? What do I say to the girl that became a victim because I wouldn't come forward????????????? Because I was too coward to face the lot of you??

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Submitted by sniffles5 on Sat, 03/28/2009 - 5:40pm.

Was it necessary to cut-and-paste this post in yet another thread?

Once was quite enough.


Submitted by support101 on Sun, 03/29/2009 - 12:21am.

I had the same response to both threads and felt that I had a right to voice my opinion and my insight. Thank you for clarifying that you read both threads. I would assume now that everyone else does as well? Luckily, I have the right to post on multiple threads and you have the right to criticize my postings, what is said in my postings, and how many times I post. Congratulations. Thanks for taking the time to make such an insightful critique/response :0)

Submitted by ugadawg87 on Sun, 03/29/2009 - 9:13pm.

Same response to both threads? How can you have the same response to both threads when this thread is not about the case? I made it perfectly clear this was not a place to discuss the case. The only thing you have clarified on this thread is the inability to a) read or b) comprehend. Now, I don't mean to be insulting. But this is the last time I'm going to ask that we refrain from talking about this case. If you want to talk about the case, post your own blog rather than wasting our time over here. Thanks.

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Submitted by sniffles5 on Sun, 03/29/2009 - 12:36am.

It's all about you and your story, we "get it".

Tell everyone loudly and often, it's your "right".

What a sad little attention whore you are.


Submitted by support101 on Sun, 03/29/2009 - 1:33pm.

No, it is obviously about Higgins and his story. I was just trying to help those open minded enough to get another perspective. Is that what you are angry about? But, you seem to be proving my point. You pass judgment on yet another person -- and you know nothing. Anonymous name calling? I hope you feel better now.

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Submitted by alittlebirdietoldme on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 2:45pm.

How do you purpose to know what happened behind closed doors?


Submitted by ugadawg87 on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 2:57pm.

I was sure I had made it clear that this was not a place to discuss the case. Perhaps I did not. Let me restate: this is not a place to discuss the case. It is not for me to decide guilty/not guilty. It is for me to make it clear who Zach Higgins is...This is the first...and only...time I was respond to something discussing the case.

Submitted by Incognito on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 3:24pm.

is what he does...not what he is...

Of course we are all the sums of our actions, don't our actions make us what we are?

Submitted by tiffeyyy on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 1:02pm.

Many people who will read this know Zach Higgins and in turn know that rape is definitely not something he is capable of committing. I haven't known Zach since elementary school and I'm certainly not one to be classified as a close personal friend of his yet in the last few years that I've known him he's been an amazing person who could always cheer me up and make me feel amazing about myself. I know in my heart and believe with everything that I am that he is innocent and no amount of Karma can make up for the injustice being put on him. If we can get our communities behind Zach and show them that there is no evidence to the accusatory party's case then maybe we can help over throw the whole case. Hearsay is not tangible evidence.

Submitted by LetMeEducateYou on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 3:59pm.

You and your friends need to go back to Senior year Government class and learn what hearsay actually is.

A victim's direct testimony about events he or she witnessed first-hand is NOT hearsay.

The following link may clear up any confusion you and your cohorts may still have;
http://criminal.findlaw.com/crimes/more-criminal-topics/evidence-witnesses/hearsay-evidence.html

Submitted by Incognito on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 1:19pm.

Many people have done stuff that I never would have thought them capable of. I find this an odd argument if he was guilty of assaulting a 4 year old in the past. I am not stating that previous acts automatically make him guilty of future acts. But I would state with certainty that if he did it once, he has the "capability" of doing it again. It is a bad argument to hang your hat on

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Submitted by matt.barnes on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 1:14pm.

You are so right. Zack is such an awesome person I wouldn't care if he admited to being guilty. I would still say we should let him go. Because I beleive in him and in my heart of hearts I know he is a really awesome terrrrrrrrrrific person. Last week he saved a dolphin from a tuna net with his bare hands.

What are you some kind of convicted felon groupie? Zack should be free because there wasn't enough evidence not because he is really awesome person and chics apparently dig felons.

Grow up.


Submitted by tiffeyyy on Thu, 03/26/2009 - 1:43pm.

No, if Zach admitted to being guilty it would be different; the thing is though, if he was guilty, he would admit it.

Zach is a great guy and this blog, if I'm not mistaken, was for people to post about the Zach they knew so that is what I did. I'm not calling him a saint, believe me, I know about his rough times but like I said, I know he didn't do this.

Submitted by Raisins222 on Wed, 03/25/2009 - 9:41pm.

How do I begin to explain Zach? I'm not a talented speaker, but Zach is such a one-of-a-kind, remarkable, must-meet person, and I am going to try to tell you about him.

I have known Zach since I was about 10 years old through our church. I remember why I first really noticed Zach, which had nothing to do with his 6'5" lanky frame or loud personality. He had such a positive energy about him that I was drawn to him. There was something about the way he looked at people.. it almost said "Hey, I'm on an amazing journey of life. Wanna come?"

I remember the first Fourth of July I spent with him. We were at church with the rest of the youth group decorating our church's float for the parade. Zach was energetically socializing with everyone, putting a smile on everyone's face as usual. As we all piled on the float and started going 5 mph down the road, Zach jumped off the float with a little red wagon in his hand. He handed me the handle, and then he sat down in that little red wagon, all 6 feet 5 inches of him. We dragged him behind the float for a while. I'll always remember this because I learned how to not take myself so seriously at that exact moment. This is just one of the many little things Zach does all the time to make people enjoy life a little bit more.

Zach is a remarkable person to watch. I remember several times he would be in the middle of a group of people laughing at his jokes when he would suddenly break away from the circle of "groupies" to go talk to someone who appeared to be having a bad time. He always treats everyone with kindness, going out of his way to make outsiders feel accepted just because he can.

Yes, I do know about Zach's previous conviction. That has nothing to do with this case, but if Zach's character is supposed to help him now, then everyone needs to realize how much that awful mistake changed him and made him the intensely caring person he is today.

Becoming friends with Zach is not like making friends with most people. You don't sit down and talk about your dog or your favorite color. You get right down to who you are. Zach is such a real person. He doesn't bother with all the norms of society because he knows what really matters, caring for one another.

Every time I called Zach crying, he listened. No matter what I had going on, he was willing to help, to say whatever he could to make me feel like the world wasn't about to end. He is just that kind of guy. I guess that is how I would describe Zach. A lover of all men.

Zach has an old, wise soul. He knows so much about life and how to live it to the fullest that it would be a sad, sad shame for his light to be taken from the world.

Submitted by mysteryman on Wed, 03/25/2009 - 9:27pm.

All with have to answer one day when the bell tolls.......PEACE

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